AS a graduate of Focus I must say it was one of the best seminars I have ever been through. Walking into that seminar I really had no idea what to expect. I was nervous and scared, but in a way I knew that I would be dealing with some issues, issues that I had stuffed down so far so I didn’t have to deal with them. At home when I did not want to face these issues I would run away to drugs to escape these very little day to day things that would come up. In the moment I did not worry about what was going on in my life, but when the drugs wore off I was back in reality with even more issues that would slap me in the face.
Focus taught me how to deal with my issues of feeling unworthy and unimportant. Many people dealt with issues such as abandonment, sexual abuse and others likewise. During the seminar I would look into people’s eyes and see so much hurt, pain and tears running
down faces as they would let go of their fears and burdens. As the days progressed I started learning about the self-limiting beliefs I chose to take on as I grew older. There were many unforgettable events that occurred throughout my young life, people calling me ugly, stupid, or unworthy. Through those events I chose to really start believing the nasty things said.
Things in my life might never change; people may continue to say rude and degrading things to me. During Focus I chose to change those rude degrading beliefs into positive constructive beliefs. I started to feel so strong and beautiful, two feelings I have not felt in a long while. I went from playing the victim from the choices and beliefs I made, to being accountable. My own actions and false beliefs brought me to the program.
A pattern of mine was to shutdown when I felt hurt or ashamed. Throughout the seminar I became open with others, but most importantly myself. Stepping out of my comfort zone and just being me, not caring what others thought about me helped me accomplish so much in those couple of days. I wasn’t placing any judgments on myself about past experiences. For once I found peace inside myself, because I dug deep into issues that were holding me back in life. The love I had for my self was lost, but focus helped me find that love again.
Although the seminar taught me many tools to use in life and how to love myself the Seminar did not change me, I chose to change myself.
Darrington Academy
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